Turning 30

I am going out for lunch with couple of my girlfriends today since I don't have to find a sitter (Sienna is still out of town with Jeremy). We are going to eat at this Indian restuarant in town for two reasons: one, I am turning 30 this week, two, Jeremy does not like Indian food any way.

I still can't believe that I am going to be 30. It's crazy how time has flown by so quickly since my college graduation. Between getting married, work, then kids one after another, I feel like that I have been on this super fast high way and has not taken much time to reflect my life. Now I look back, I am just so happy that I married the person I did, feel so blessed to have two beautiful children with Jeremy, and am glad I don't have to go back to school to finish my college degree after the kids are all grown up like some of the other moms do.

I think the biggest thing between my last 6 years of married life and my single life is that I have learned to complain less and enjoy more. It feels good to be able to build up a family instead of tear it down. I love being a wife and a mother now. Of course it wasn't always like this. I remember how sad and resentful I was when I first had kid. All I could think of was when I would be able to go back to work. I had a hard time adjusting to motherhood. With all of the mundane daily cleaning, cooking, laundary, grocery shopping, feeding, changing, crying babies, it was far from what I imagined how motherhood would be like. But now I look at it as a service to my family and learn to love it because it makes me happy that my husband has a well cared home to come back to after a day of hard work. Just knowing that my children had a good day or bad day, not being abused by someone I don't know much about at a daycare, it makes me happy and feel secure.

As a stay-at-home mom, I no longer receive the recognition from the world as when I worked as a project engineer, nor do I receive that good size pay check for being good at what I do. But my husband loves me and appreciates what I do for the family, and my kids love me and give me hugs and kisses (I guess it's their payment to mommy). That's priceless.

So I am older now, and no longer a "twenty some year old". But I am happier than when I was in my twenties. Overall, I think I am on the right path toward greater happiness and deeper bond with my husband. "Yeah" for 30. I embrace you!